“If I could I wouldn’t want you/
but it’s getting late now and I can’t stop”
-Winona Oak, “Break my Broken Heart”

We can’t always control our emotions. Hell, I’m not sure I have many of those myself and even I know that. I’m sure emotions arrive and disappear in different ways for different people. Are they like tides, ebbing and flowing with varying intensities? Is it a flame, there in an instant, burning brightly until it’s extinguished, easily able to roar out of control? Is it a gust of wind, sharp, sudden, there one minute and gone the next? I suppose I would liken my own to the Christmas lights in my neighborhood. Absent most of the time, appearing slowly at first, shining brightly but briefly, and then, in almost an instant, gone with no trace that they were ever there at all. But there are parts we can control. We can control how we express those emotions and convey them to the world, and we can control how we receive the emotions of others.
In Hollow Heart from Paul Allor and Paul Tucker, El is a tortured soul within an electromechanical body experiencing immense pain. He’s an amalgamation of organs and machinery who has led an existence sheltered from virtually all experience and therefore from a vast array of emotions. All he feels now, trapped, poked, and prodded inside a windowless room devoid of life, is a pain so intense that escape is the only option, even if it means death. This is El’s expression. This is the cry El releases into the world in hopes someone will hear him. [Read more…] about Break My Hollow Heart: The Emotional Complexity of Vault Comics’ Latest


While well-intentioned it was a toxic idea of masculinity that drove Richard to put himself in harm’s way and be self-sacrificing in every possible context. Richard became damaged cumulatively from attempting to handle everything himself over the course of his history. All of that existing trauma is made worse by losing his mentor and friend Peter Quill aka Star-Lord, who in that same issue says he loved Peter to Gamora (the implications of that are clear but left up in the air in-story). That is given a pretty devastating response by Gamora who tells Richard that it was easier to love him when he was dead. We get a surgical review of why and how Richard is broken to his therapist. But it also culminates in Richard being asked by his therapist a pretty simple question: why can’t he see that he deserves love and help?

That feeling of loss of control gets exacerbated with the events of the Hellfire Gala where the nation of Krakoa reveals a new resource/currency called Mysterium which it blatantly uses to bribe other galactic powers into recognizing its colonization of Mars and declaration of rule over Earth’s solar system. All of that weighs on Richard who can only see the negatives involved given that he’s witnessed so many promising beginnings end in tragedy. Again we’re given a fairly reasonable understanding for Richard’s actions whose constant flirtations with tragedy over the recent past have made it difficult for him to not see bad ends. Whether that’s having to cut deals with supervillains, coping with his own self-loathing and loss, or having to watch the world he’s known for so long change before his eyes. All of that weighs on a person.
This is of course how the best comics are made. But more importantly Richard himself finally gets a win; he hears the words he really needed to hear: that he was loved by the people he loves in return. The aftermath sees so many long-standing enemies bury the hatchet, and relationships renewed. In Richard’s case he decides he can finally come to a stop for once. That the burden of duty isn’t solely on him anymore like he’s believed his entire life and can stop and do what he wants for a change.